Went for the 12 week dating scan tonight. Thanks to Helen from work for sitting for Fidget.

It was really quiet at the ante natal unit and we were straight in. At first she moved the scanner around and I couldn't see anything and I had that horrible feeling there would be nothing there. but then a little head and a spine could be seen, and little legs and hands.

He kept hiccuping and jumping about, you could see a little heartbeat it was so cool, i did find it very emotional and really for the first time started to think about this new baby being real. I think he looks like a he, but that is not based on anything!!

Fortunately there is only one little cheeker in there, no twins, triplets etc.

My due date is now 5th October, and I am supposedly 12 weeks and 2 days not 6 days. But to be honest the method she had for measuring and getting the date didn't seem to be that accurate to me.

Bit of a posting gap, this is my 12 week picture (tommorrow I will be 13 weeks), been feeling so knackered in the evenings that just the thought of picking up my computer is tiring.

Tonight we are off for the 12 week dating scan, I am looking forward to it, and to getting confirmation that I am really pregnant - not just suffering from some disease that makes you really tired and sick.

Been feeling better sickness wise, still can't stomach quite a lot of things, but there is enough that I can eat, and I am trying to eat little and often which is helping.

Got a date for my 12 week scan...25th March at 7.15pm. Can't wait!

Been better at eating, getting some reasonable sized and fairly balanced meals down me. Feel really tired though, so in the evening I just prop myself up on the sofa and do nothing. M has been brilliant, and has been doing much more cleaning and tidying as well as the usual cooking and hoovering. I just dont feel like doing anything. I get through the working day on a prayer and then once through the door just collapse. On Thursday, I couldn't really be bothered to stand up and have a picture taken! I did weigh myself though, 79kg, so going back up which is good.

Going to pregnancy yoga tonight, I am looking forward to it, but I think I will be tired, Mush says she is not usually home until 10 at the earliest. I am fast asleep by 8:30 usually!

The electric shower broke at the weekend, it has done us good service while we were doing up the house and had no heating or hot water, but I had hoped that it would wait until we had our en-suite before doing anything dramatic. I feel pretty scanky today, so think I will have a bath with Fidget tonight - should be fun!

1st Midwife visit

Worked at home today so that I could attend my midwife appointment this afternoon. I am with Jenny again, though she will be retiring (sort of) and so not sure who I will get later on.

The booking in session takes quite a while, going through everything. I think i am shaping up pretty well, non smoker, eat healthily, low alcohol intake (now zero), and everything with Fidget is hunky dory so there weren't any big issues. The main things that she double checked were over family history of depression (which there is) and then how I coped in early days with Fidget, also the fact that my birth Father and stepmother had twins - but I recon that was probably from her side. She confirmed that the weight loss I have recorded is worrying, but my BMI is still very good, and I think I am stabilising anyway now, so all in all there aren't any immediate issues.

This morning I was supposed to take a urine sample - first wee of the morning, before eating. I forgot but then remembered and tried to squeeze a bit more out! The amount in the pot was tiny! But fortunately it was enough. She asked if I minded recycling my pot for next time, I felt that in my profession I am duty bound to say yes, so hello minging pot, my friend for the next 30 odd weeks!

She had to take some blood too. I remember last time, M was with me, I was looking at him for moral support then his face suddenly went worried, I looked down and there was blood spurting everywhere!! So I was a bit worried this time. I kept looking away and just babbling about how Fidget is in to everything and it was soon over. Unfortunately my long sleeved top was a bit tight around the top of my arm and my arm started to go a bit blue and funny, I lifted the cotton wool and I had another spurter!! We quickly put a plaster on it and got my sleeve down, but I did have quite a wave of nausea come over me.

Different to last time, I will get a 12 week dating scan, which is now standard, that is really exciting, it seemed so long to wait until 20 weeks, but Jenny said I am 9 weeks + a few days, so it will hardly be any time before I have an appointment fingers crossed! I can't wait to see mini-C the 2nd (need to get a proper nickname), it is hard to believe I am pregnant, despite all the tiredness and sickness.

Got loads of bumf to read through again, and a big orange book. I can really feel official now I have my big orange book. I remember spotting the women in the doctors or at the clinic with their orange books, it means you are part of the club! You get all kinds of stuff stuck into it, so it feels like a real scrapbook, I had the urge last time to decorate it with pictures and stickers, which I didn't because it stays with the midwife so it is not really my book for ever, but for now I will enjoy the feel of owning it!

Interesting.... I have just added the baby due date ticker and it says I am NINE weeks pregnant! Confusing!

I have an appointment with the midwife next week, hopefully she will help me figure it out!

8 weeks

Weighed myself this evening, 77.1kg so still loosing weight, I thought I had been eating better, but I guess I am still using a lot of energy and I am not eating as much as I normally would.

Been feeling better generally, but still having rough days, I find it tiring to be at work at the moment, as there is alot of pressure on everyone to work really hard given the economic situation, but I just can't keep going and often feel very sick and tired (literally).

I spoke to my line manager about going back to 3 days, and while he would rather it were other people taking a cut in working days as I am doing pretty well at work, he understands (I told him I was pregnant also) and is fully suportive of the decision, so I just have to put the form in and I should be back to 3 days in April.

Weighed myself last night, now down to 78kg, so lost 2 kg which I think is 5lb over the week and a half. Glad I am getting my appetite back. Had two croissant for breakfast - yum.